Ever stared at a blank page for 30 minutes straight?
Knowing what to say but don’t know how to elaborate?
Where to start, explain or prove yourself?
Because if it all falls down it feels like death?
What sounded to her as lack of disrespect
Was a misunderstanding of the situation and illusions to expect.
And because of that she decides to leave
And wallow here begging for a reprieve.
A love like this, like never before
A pain like this, feeling’s so sore
Futile to hide to the world how I feel
Because the pain’s apparent on my face, because it’s real.
My actual heart feels heavy.
It aches, pains, it burns, and it’s ugly.
I have(not had) a person who doesn’t trust me.
and I want her to see that I can’t plead guilty.
There was nothing that I did to steer her wrong
But an accidental phone call and hearing my friends(girls) in the background was enough to cause a stir.
And what pains me more is that she can’t believe every word I say
But I don’t blame her, I’d do the same thing if that was what I heard.
But I say this now, to her and to the world
There has been no one else who has ever been a complete stranger in the beginning and been my best friend like this
Given me love and believed in a future with bliss
And working so hard on building something I believed was strong enough, wasn’t.
I Love this woman
I Love her to death
I’d do anything in my human powers to have her loving me again
Seeing her leaving over something I didn’t do is making me go insane.
I say it’s the truth, my life on the line
I even had my friends there,
On my family’s blood I swear
I’d never do that to hurt her.
I know right now that I have something big to work on
Doing whatever it takes to make her see that this love isn’t forlorn.
Because I LOVE HER and that’s all there is to it
And I can lay down my whole life for her.
God grant me strength and insight into this dark road I tread
I’ve never had to fight for something so hard, but not afraid of the future I dread
Because the decision I make now to do this is better than the heartache that I have to endure
This love shall not wane.
It will make us hopefully stronger.